Choices

I am a person that have dilemma for all kind of things. 

Personally, I think is because I always make the wrong choices in life, so it became a phobia for me to make choices and I overthink every outcome which cause to dilemma. 

Recently, I had the worst dilemma for choosing between working part-time and playing the sports I love the most. Working part-time is as equally important than playing the sports I love. Firstly, working part-time is important because I don't get consistence allowance from my parents, I only ask them for money when I need to pay for something that consist of a big amount. For example, my college fees, petrol money and also phone bills, while other expenses was paid by myself. Therefore, working part-time has became a part of my life. 

Secondly, the sports I love most was cheerleading. This cheerleading team that I am joining now is much more fun and exciting because it wasn't just a small team of high school cheerleaders, there are many working adults and other college students that passionate about cheerleading, which make them put an effort to come for training after a busy day of work and school. I learned a lot from all these people, and the skills to achieve is much more higher compare to the high school cheerleading team. This year, my team was planning to join a cheerleading competition in Singapore during March,  I was honoured enough to be selected in the team to join this competition. However, the training days and hours has increased due to the competition, which needed a lot of commitment and consume a lot of my physical energy. 

Therefore, in this new semester I had 6 subjects which means the amount of assignments will be stressful. By putting these three elements in life together is a bit overwhelming for me, so I decided to give up one, which definitely cannot be my studies. 

However, I made up my mind and choose to quit my job. Things might be difficult for the starting, but after I discussed with my parents, they decided to support with the choices I made by adding my allowance and hope I can manage to adjust my lifestyle, control my spending wisely.

There are many things I managed to learn after all the choices I make, I learned how to choose the right choice for myself, and even though I didn't choose the right choice, I also learned how to bear with the consequences, trying to make things right. As I grow up in my life, I know that I couldn't be too dependant anymore, I couldn't depend on my parents to make choices for me. The process of growing up is always bumpy, I am glad I have my parents and friends being supportive with most of the choices I made. 

"When life gives you lemon, grab tequila and salt". I will try my best to enjoy every difficult moment as it will be pushing me to achieve incredible things.

A group picture :)