Photograph

Photograph
we keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And times are forever frozen still
-Ed Sheeren-

Photograph is a very artistic thing, it keep memories, it frozen moments that you want to be kept. 

I always have a passion for photography, my passion for photography grows after my 2nd semester as I have digital photography as one of my subject. 

Through this photography class, I learned how to take photo from different angles, learn to see things in a different perception, play with the contrast and also the lighting. 

Yesterday, I was at home and I got bored for staying at home so I decided to make use of my DSLR that I bought to the nearest park and have a photo session for my own collection. 

So from what I remembered, I hadn't been to this park for more than 10 times since I move here when I was 10years old. 

I capture a lot of interesting moment. I captured a family playing football together, people jogging in the park and also playing with their dogs. 

I love how amazing is photography, it also teaches me that there always different way to see things. Everyone see things in the different way, and it proves that everything has not only one angle. Once you zoom in the camera, then you will see lesser things from the lens and capture a smaller picture, is like when you are seeing things too close, you couldn't see the full picture and you will be blur about the picture you see. However, when you zoom out the camera, you will see a larger picture, you will get to see more, understand more and know more about the picture. 

I believe that you couldn't always see things in a small picture, always remember when you see things too close, then you will missed out something. 

Favorite pic of the day

The view of the park. 

Two-face society

People always mentioned that the working society is full of scheming, two-faces people and I always believe there is still someone that will be treating you truthfully. 

There is this incident happened yesterday, when I was working at Gap Kids retail store yesterday, there is many customer in the shop. Therefore , all the staff is very busy with serving customer, and also some of the staff is doing cashier. At this time, there is this one staff name Rinie, she wants to go to the washroom, so she asked me to take over her cashier position. However, I am not a full-timer so I couldn't be the cashier, but it was emergency so I did cashier for one time. Later on, when the cashier need to take-over by another staff, there were short of RM150. The manager was trying to find who took the money. 

Suddenly, Rinie had her fingers point at me, blame me on this. My manager questioned me and asked me to find the receipt and out of my expectation, I couldn't find the receipt and the whole situation seems like is I took the money and trying to hide the evidence. The staff Rinie backstabbed me and she frame me for taking the money. 

The manager gave us 2 choices, 

1. We both share to pay the RM150 and this thing will be settle without reporting to the management. 

2. My manager will check the CCTV but this will be reported to the management and action will be taken according to the policy. 

I insisted on checking the CCTV as I am very sure I didn't took the money or lose the money while i was doing cashier. Finally, the staff Rinie admitted she took the money and she apologise. However, she didn't even bother to apologise to me. 

After this incident, I realise in the working society, people can be nice to you in this second, but in another they can also be the one that put you in trouble. I think back that before this incident happen, we used to be good friends and we will share many things with each other, and yesterday things like that happened, gave me sudden chill in my heart. 

I was angry and disappointed at the same time, it feels like I am betrayed but then I was also to naive to trust someone so easily. Is a lesson I experience and learned from it. 

Tattoos

Tattoo. 

I did my first tattoo when I was 19 years old, my sister is the first one in the family that tried going against my parents, and did her first tattoo before even asking approval from them. She gave me the gut to have my first tattoo. On my 19th birthday, she gave me a present, which is paying my first tattoo for me. 

People that had tattoo will say that tattoo is addictive, and I must agree with that because currently I already had 4 tattoos. The feeling of getting the tattoo is pain, but is a good feeling of pain. I like the excitement I get while in the process of having tattoo. All of my tattoo represents different meaning. 

The first tattoo of mine, is an infinity sign with wordings of "love life". I did a lot thinking before having my first tattoo as I didn't want to regret it. So after half year later, I did my 2nd tattoo which is on my arm, with a wording of "strength". Many people asked me the meaning of strength. I think the tattoo of strength is to remind me to always have strength in my life to be independent and have the strength to go through all the hardships, problems in life. A year later, I did my 3rd tattoo, which is a symbol that represents three elements, which is wisdom, luck and love. Lastly, I did my 4th tattoo after I broke up this week , when many people disagree the most. I did flying dandelion which represent happiness and freedom. 

 So, yesterday I am thinking of having another tattoo again and I was thinking of doing a wording "family" on my shoulder. Why family? Why on my shoulder? I thought of doing family on my shoulder is because I am a family-oriented person, family comes first in everything, family represents everything, is who I am now, and I choose to do it on my shoulder is because I hope one day I am capable enough to carry the responsible of taking care my family, able to helped out my family in every way I can. This will also be the motivation for me to study hard and worked as hard as I can in the future in order to achieve that. 

"Having someone to love is family, having somewhere to go is home, having both is a blessing"

Appreciate and love your family as they are all we have now and in the future.

When it comes to tattoo, I don't like when people categorise people that have tattoos as a bad girl and they tend to judge. As before I even have any tattoos, I always think people that have tattoo is someone that is fierce, gangster and it somehow left a bad impression. However, my perception changed and I know how not to judge a book by its cover. You don't judge a person by just their outlook, always must get to know that person before you judge. People that smile to you and look nice but they actually have a bad personality once you get to know them, people that look unfriendly may actually is a nice person.

The latest dandelion tattoo. 

The second tattoo . 

My very first tattoo.

Choices

I am a person that have dilemma for all kind of things. 

Personally, I think is because I always make the wrong choices in life, so it became a phobia for me to make choices and I overthink every outcome which cause to dilemma. 

Recently, I had the worst dilemma for choosing between working part-time and playing the sports I love the most. Working part-time is as equally important than playing the sports I love. Firstly, working part-time is important because I don't get consistence allowance from my parents, I only ask them for money when I need to pay for something that consist of a big amount. For example, my college fees, petrol money and also phone bills, while other expenses was paid by myself. Therefore, working part-time has became a part of my life. 

Secondly, the sports I love most was cheerleading. This cheerleading team that I am joining now is much more fun and exciting because it wasn't just a small team of high school cheerleaders, there are many working adults and other college students that passionate about cheerleading, which make them put an effort to come for training after a busy day of work and school. I learned a lot from all these people, and the skills to achieve is much more higher compare to the high school cheerleading team. This year, my team was planning to join a cheerleading competition in Singapore during March,  I was honoured enough to be selected in the team to join this competition. However, the training days and hours has increased due to the competition, which needed a lot of commitment and consume a lot of my physical energy. 

Therefore, in this new semester I had 6 subjects which means the amount of assignments will be stressful. By putting these three elements in life together is a bit overwhelming for me, so I decided to give up one, which definitely cannot be my studies. 

However, I made up my mind and choose to quit my job. Things might be difficult for the starting, but after I discussed with my parents, they decided to support with the choices I made by adding my allowance and hope I can manage to adjust my lifestyle, control my spending wisely.

There are many things I managed to learn after all the choices I make, I learned how to choose the right choice for myself, and even though I didn't choose the right choice, I also learned how to bear with the consequences, trying to make things right. As I grow up in my life, I know that I couldn't be too dependant anymore, I couldn't depend on my parents to make choices for me. The process of growing up is always bumpy, I am glad I have my parents and friends being supportive with most of the choices I made. 

"When life gives you lemon, grab tequila and salt". I will try my best to enjoy every difficult moment as it will be pushing me to achieve incredible things.

A group picture :)